Tomorrow...

...I join a bowling league.

SUCK IT.

Really, it's only getting worse.

...but really now, it's only for the better. Not sadistic, I swear. There's just less left to ponder about human psychology. The guilt and 'pain' associated with learning the truth can only deficit a negative outcome, and substantially emphasize positivity.

I really don't need a pat on the back for everything. I'm a goddamn adult.

And let me tell you, I've tried thinking both sides out. There's no winning with jerks. Everyone's an attention whore- It's just another particularly irritating deficiency in our civil construction.

Aside from all of that, everyone relies on trust more than is granted. It's like subconsciously allowing for a safety net, while imagining everything will go great regardless of what the opposing party says.

Anyways, this is all a result of my stupid jump-to-conclusions-obsessed-with-a-girl-that-has-no-attachment-to-me.

I'll leave with a picture.

I feel really alone in the world right now.

It's a harsh sense of the world "independent," but I think I know what people are making a big fuss about.

It's tough. Knowing I'm working a job that has no safety net is scary. Signing up for college and applying for loans on my own is scary. Even knowing most of what I've produced up until today is pointless. Kinda scary. But I guess that's the sheer taste of independence. 

That blissful freethinking that only occurred with a reassurance my parents would be able to pick me up if I failed could only be thought of fondly, but now impractical. 

So here's to a big step out there in the wild. I can only help myself up from here on out.

1.5 months

I'm back again. And no, honestly, that glasses idea never took any progress.

But here's what happened!

- Was a DJ for 5 grad parties.
    - Made BANK
- Played the rooftop at Vinyl Nightclub
    - Socked a loser in the face, business-wise
- Got my diploma (in the mail)
- Registered for classes

- Gave up hope with my current crushes
..
...
- GOT IT BACK (after rocking out!)

- New longboard (in fact, 2)

- Went on July 4, ripped open my right side on a curb
- Healed as of today!

As I sit here in my reordered room, rocking in an Ikea chair, revisiting my curious, anxious nature of being a freshmen, there's still so much more to do before fall hits.

Let's do it!